Christopher Herter guessed it was a typical early
December lunchtime crowd at the Bryant Park ice
skating rink, mostly tourists, shoppers and the
occasional nearby office escapee. He waited with the
others behind the rail for the Zamboni to complete its
last circuit and for the next session to begin. He
cursed under his breath in disgust, still fuming at
recently being banned from the Rockefeller Center
Rink, for what they called offensive behavior. In a
scene of mortifying humiliation, the manager had
announced over the public address system that the
ushers were to alert him immediately if Chris ever
reappeared. The manager also blared that he would have
Chris banned from the Wollman rink in Central Park and
other rinks in the city. All the regulars watched
avidly as the police escorted him out, which insured
that they wouldn't be inviting him to their parties
anymore. This was particularly galling, since it meant
the end of free meals and cut off a social setting
where he sometimes collected an unwary woman, a
newcomer to skating circles, unused to encountering an
extremely cunning sexual predator, who could be
deceptively charming.
With his constant attitude of never being in the
wrong, Chris refused to admit to himself that he was
to blame for the incident that had resulted in his
banishment. After all, how was he supposed to know the
girl was only thirteen? She looked like she was at
least eighteen or nineteen. When she told him she was
a college student he had no reason to doubt her. It
had started as it always did. He was displaying
himself in the center of the rink, doing jumps and
spins, attracting attention to his verve and skill. He
was in his early thirties, a bit over six feet, with
dark curly hair and dark eyes, set off by his pale
skin. His taut, muscular body was outlined in a tight,
form-fitting white turtleneck and snug black pants. He
peripherally observed the girl admiring him and after
briefly assessing the other skaters, he selected her
as the optimum choice of the day.
He prepared her with his usual thoroughness. First he
verified that she was definitely interested, then he
made sure she was watching when he executed a
particularly dynamic move. After several brief eye
exchanges, he flashed a low-medium wattage smile that
caught her attention and provoked a smile in response.
He skated to her and the rest was a matter of
technique. "My name's Chris. What's yours?" "Lottie."
"That's a nice name. I never heard of it before." "I
was named for a German opera singer," she replied
nervously. He was used to that. She was young, lush
and ripe for the picking. He confidently put his arm
around her waist and said: "Let's skate." As they
glided around the oval he was just beginning to
explore her body when someone abruptly yanked his arm,
pulling him off balance. He started to turn and swing
at the intruder, but confronted a big, red faced,
angry older man, who yelled loudly: "Take your filthy
hands off my daughter." The rest was inevitable.
So here he was, exiled from the land of milk and
honey, reduced to scavenging in a lesser arena that in
the three days he had been going there had been
completely unproductive, adding to his feelings of
disgrace and frustration. He doubted that the manager
at the Rockefeller Center rink could actually get him
banned from other rinks, but that didn't make him feel
any better. His appetites, normally kept under rigid
control until he could exercise them, were becoming
increasingly urgent. It wasn't that he wanted to hurt
women, he just needed the thrill of their fear and
pain for his own arousal and fulfillment. So he
indulged in rough sex. So he gave them a few scrapes
and bruises. So what? He didn't do any real damage and
he provided a unique learning experience. He only used
them once and never bothered them again, so no lasting
harm was done. He even took perverse pride in thinking
they would never forget him.
Aah. He rolled the bitter pill of scorn under his
tongue and half-heartedly scanned the skaters as they
made their way onto the ice. Whoa. His eyes clicked
like a raptor on a young woman who stumbled out of the
gate and desperately clung to the railing, as she
tried to make her feet do what they were reluctant to
do. He looked her over closely. She was short,
slightly plump, but curved in the right places, with
blonde hair and a roseate complexion. She looked corn
fed, straight out of the farm and susceptible to the
nice guy trying to be helpful act. He watched her
hobble around the rink twice before he concluded that
she was alone, then begrudgingly decided that there
were no other candidates and selected a reassuring,
non-threatening approach.
He timed his arrival just as she stumbled, easily
accomplished since that was all she was doing. "Hold
on there, miss. I've got you," and he carefully took
her arm, steadying her.
He used a low-wattage, sincere
smile, meant to generate trust. "With just a little
help you'll be zipping around the ice easily."
She
blushed and said with a laugh: "I'm afraid not. My
feet slip rather than zip on ice," and she giggled at
her attempt at wit.
"I wasn't doing much better than
you a few weeks ago," he offered. "Then this nice
older lady helped me around the rink and gave me some
pointers. Now I'm really enjoying the ice." He gave
her his most sincere, I am a trustworthy fellow look
and urged gently: "Why don't you give it a try?"
"I
don't want to bother you."
"It's no bother. It's my
way of repaying a kindness." He extended his arm and
she slowly took it.
"Now stop whenever I become a
burden," she insisted. "Don't worry about it. Just
enjoy yourself and learn to skate."
Chris assisted her courteously, making sure that he
didn't reveal any appearance other than the skating
Samaritan. They made their way around the rink slowly
and she gradually relaxed and actually began to skate.
"I don't believe it," she gushed. "I'm really
skating."
He gave her another low-wattage, manly
forthright smile. "You're not quite ready to do a
figure eight yet, but with a few small adjustments you
could skate by yourself and decide if you like it.
Would you like me to help you?"
"Oh, yes. If it's not
too much trouble. I don't want you to give up your
skating time."
"There's plenty of time for me to skate
and in just a few minutes you'll be off on your own."
"You're very nice. Thank you."
He showed her how to control her balance and
movements, handling her very respectfully and after a
few minutes she stopped worrying abut falling or
looking foolish. He quickly caught and supported her
when she stumbled, making sure he didn't touch her in
any way that might be considered intrusive. And lo and
behold, in just a short time she was skating on her
own. Her eyes shone and her face was flushed with
excitement.
"This is wonderful. You're a great
teacher."
"Not really," he replied, projecting
modesty. "You're a good athlete. I just helped a
little."
"Yeah. Right. You don't know how clumsy I
am."
This time he offered a medium-wattage smile,
designed to make her realize how attractive he was. "I
think with a bit more self-confidence and some
practice you could do a lot of things that you were
afraid to try."
He injected a small hint of
suggestiveness. "You look like a very capable young
woman." She flushed and didn't respond, but he knew
she got the message.
A pang of annoyance stabbed through him, part from
wanting to possess her, part from resentment that she
was just an ordinary country mouse, not scoring very
high on the desirable scale, and bitterest thought of
all; right now she was the best he could do. He masked
all signs of violent emotion that if perceived would
send her scurrying for safety. He watchfully escorted
her several times around the oval, noting the rapid
improvement in her ability to skate freely. She gave
him frequent looks of 'how am I doing?' seeking
approval from the handsome stranger who had
unexpectedly befriended her. She was really beginning
to have fun, when a p.a. announcement said: "In a
salute to the past, the next session will be for
couples only. The regular session will resume in ten
minutes. Thank you."
Skaters began to make their way off the ice and the
girl turned to Chris with a pouty look. "Darn. I was
just starting to do well. I'll probably forget
everything by the time I get on the ice again."
Chris
shook his head and smiled at her sympathetically. "You
won't forget. You're doing fine. A lot of guys would
be glad to skate couples with you."
He coldly watched
her gather her courage, then she asked shyly: "Would
you?" She was so pathetically easy that he almost said
no, but a quick survey of the rink convinced him that
there were no better prospects. The tension he was so
scrupulously concealing reminded him that he needed to
vent his built-up frustrations, and at the moment she
was probably the best that an exile from Rockefeller
Center could find.
Chris flashed a medium-high wattage smile and showed
her the position they would skate in. Once he had his
arm around her he leaned closer, adding another level
to her awareness of him.
"Since we're suddenly so
close, it's time for introductions. I'm Chris." He
could feel the heat emanating from her body wherever
he was touching her; arm, back, hip, leg, and he made
sure she felt his heat, all the while presenting a
courteous façade that was disarming. She was blushing
non-stop and he could see that she was already
beginning to fantasize about a romantic encounter.
"I'm Maryann. It's nice to meet you."
"It's my
pleasure, Miss Maryann," he addressed her on an
impulse, and smirked to himself as she devoured what
seemed like good manners. He figuratively patted
himself on the back for being clever enough not to
have shown off his skating skill at the Bryant Park
rink, which might have drawn the wrong kind of
attention. After all, he hadn't decided whether to
come back here, or go somewhere else.
He took masterful control of her and she let herself
be swept away in his arms, completely oblivious to his
voracious appetite lurking just beneath the surface.
The feeling of his body moving against her produced
tingles of excitement in her that were alien to her
sensibilities. Her last titillation had been in
anticipating her first open-mouthed kiss, which didn't
live up to expectations. After that, sex had been more
of a peer-group obligation, rather that the burning
passions of chick-lit books, or the steamy joinings of
R-rated movies. It wasn't that she didn't have
desires. It was more like the boys she met just didn't
turn her on. The three boyfriends she had experimented
with had ranged from limp, to sweaty, to clumsy, and
in their different ways had left her sexually tense
and remote. She was a little afraid of the stirrings
she was feeling for Chris, but so far he was a perfect
gentlemen.
By the time the couples session ended, Chris knew that
Maryann was ripe for the plucking. This made him
despise her for being so trusting and he became
angrier, although he camouflaged it even more
thoroughly with surface charm. He saw that she was
slightly fatigued from the unaccustomed exercise and
had been sufficiently exposed to stimulating physical
contact.
He politely took her arm and guided her off
the ice. "I don't think you should overdo it the first
time out. Why don't you sit down for a few and I'll
get you a hot chocolate."
He led her to a nearby
table, held her chair as she sat, then said: "I'll
only be a minute. Then I'll say goodbye and you can
decide whether or not you want to skate anymore." He
walked away before she could respond, but he was
certain that she was hooked and wouldn't let him go.
The hot chocolate affected her almost as much as if it
had been an aphrodisiac. She showed all the symptoms
of infatuation; doting glances, flushed cheeks, rapid
breathing and she babbled away like mad. All he had to
do was nod encouragingly as she gushed about her home
in Cedar Rapids, Iowa, the family tradition of working
in a furniture factory, and playing in the local
symphony orchestra. Music was apparently the only way
for her family to express individuality, because she
described how each one played a different instrument.
He listened attentively as she described her studies
at the state agricultural school where she was a
junior, preparing for a career as a veterinarian. He
silently nicknamed her 'Doctor Bovina', and had to
catch himself before he snickered derisively. She
finally wound down a bit and said: "Here I've been
running on about myself and you've just sat there like
the strong, silent type. Tell me about yourself.
Where are you from? What do you do? Who is this prince
charming who rescued me?"
He instantly decided to tell her as intriguing a tale
as possible and smiled modestly. "I'm no prince
charming. I'm just a struggling artist. My father was
a diplomat and I was born in Paris. We moved every few
years, mostly to African countries, but sometimes
Japan, or China. My mom died when I was two, so I
don't remember her. I went to American schools
wherever we were stationed, but they were different
from the schools back in the states, more sheltered
from the harsh realities of life. Dad wanted me to
follow in his footsteps, but diplomacy wasn't for me.
When I decided to go to art school in California he
disowned me and we haven't spoken since. A gallery in
L.A. started showing my work a few years ago and
actually sold a few paintings, so I took a chance and
came to New York. I'm getting some paintings ready so
I can try to find a gallery to represent me here.
Until then, I'm just another starving artist. That's
it. That's my story." He didn't even have to look at
her to know she believed every word.
"What an exciting life," she enthused. "Not like my
drab existence."
"It's not as interesting as all that.
It's been a real struggle to survive on my own and
paint, hoping that someday I'll be a known artist,
with my work in museums." He stared wistfully across
the park, as if gazing into the future at his
paintings hanging on a wall in the Whitney Museum,
looking past the leafless, sickly sycamore trees and
not seeing the graceless Grace building across 42nd
street.
"How can you say that?" she demanded mock
indignantly. "You've been everywhere, seen everything
and you're making it on your own. This is my first
time out of Iowa and except for meeting you, it's been
like I had my nose pressed against a restaurant
window, watching people eat while I was starving. The
only person I talked to in the last two days was the
desk clerk at the hotel. I actually stopped someone on
the street and asked directions, just to hear another
voice."
He knew, as he always did, that the moment had come.
He stood up slowly. "I didn't mean to monopolize your
time. I'll just say goodbye and leave you to your
skating."
"You can't go," she blurted, then tried to
cover up her growing fascination with him. "You
launched my career as a skater and now you want to
abandon me? How about you skate with me for a little
while longer, then I'll buy you dinner as a way of
repaying you for what's become a real fun trip."
He
gave her the medium-low wattage, too proud to accept
charity smile. "I'll be glad to skate with you for a
while, but I couldn't accept dinner."
"Why not?"
"I
wouldn't want to take advantage of your generous
nature."
"That's silly," she said. "I've been taking
advantage of you. It's the least I can do."
He emitted
the medium wattage sweet smile. "I'll skate with you
and we'll see about dinner later."
"No. It's
settled." He shrugged helplessly, then led her to the
ice.
Maryann was having the time of her life. She was still
feeling the aftereffects of being alone in the fabled
city, and she transferred all her emotions to the
good-looking guy who came out of nowhere and had
transformed her vacation from empty to full. She kept
glancing at him as they skated, fervently hoping he
wouldn't disappear as suddenly as he had arrived.
"Could we skate as a couple again?" she asked shyly.
"It really helped me before."
"Sure." His arm slipped
around her and she immediately felt a wave of pleasure
engulf her, followed by unaccustomed surges of desire
for the hard, masculine body that held her so
securely. She lost track of time as they went round
and round and noticed nothing else but the man beside
her, wishing that these delicious moments would never
end.
When the p.a. system announced the end of the session
and requested the skaters to leave the ice so it could
be cleaned, Chris was disgusted with himself for
wasting so much energy on a dumb rube. Without the
challenge of winning someone over and enforcing his
will on the victim, there was no thrill of conquest.
His greatest satisfaction had come when he humbled a
haughty ice princess, reducing her formerly
unobtainable body to a quivering mass, as she pleaded
with him not to hurt her anymore. It wasn't the
infliction of pain that aroused him. It was the
burning sensation of power, while he compelled a woman
who was used to being in charge to obey him. He looked
Maryann over once more and concluded she wasn't worth
the effort. He decided to return the rental skates
that cost $8.75, grumbling to himself mentally for not
bringing his own skates, then dump this dreary girl
before she really angered him.
He headed for the exit, not even bothering to say
goodbye, then he heard her calling him: "Chris. Chris.
Wait for me." He didn't want to be remembered by
anyone, so he suppressed his impulse to strike her and
turned with an abashed smile.
"I didn't want to
obligate you," he said softly.
"You're not getting
away from me that easily," she asserted. "I insist on
taking you to dinner."
He felt a surge of rage, but he
masked it, not wanting to attract attention. "That's
very nice of you, but I don't want to impose. Besides,
I need a shower. I'll get one at my studio and call
you later."
"I can go with you. I'd love to see your
paintings."
He thought quickly. "My studio is way out
in Brooklyn and I share it with another artist. We're
not allowed to bring anyone there."
Then she had the
most daring impulse of her life. "You can shower at my
hotel."
He mentally gritted his teeth, beginning to
regret that he had tried to spare her. "Let's go," he
said and offered her his arm.
They walked north on the Avenue of the Americas, both
lost in their own thoughts, hers much gentler than
his, until they passed Radio City Music Hall.
"I
always wanted to see the Rockettes," she said. "Did
you ever see them?"
"No," he muttered, aggravated
further by her sweet simplicity. A few minutes later
they reached her hotel, a non-descript pile of brick
and concrete without any redeeming architectural
value. The doorman nodded politely and opened the door
for them. As they passed through the lobby, the desk
clerk called: "Good afternoon, Ms. Jensen," and
Maryann cheerfully replied: "Hi, there." Chris knew
that if he did anything to her he might be identified
later, so when they got to the elevator he said
coldly: "I can't do this. I've got to go." He turned
and walked away, and behind him he heard her start to
cry. His last thought about her as he obliterated her
from his mind was that she'd never know how lucky she
was that she had only shed tears, rather than blood.